This is an emo post.

Have you ever wondered what constitutes a perfect boyfriend?

Good grades? Smart? Non-smoker? Intelligent? Matured? Tall? The way he treats you? Humorous?

The list goes on.

In fact mine is longer, but does “he” really exist? Has “he” appeared in your life? Would “he” even appear? If “he” does, would he enter your life or remain a passer-by?

In the current tragic reality, every guy must own an intangible asset: future.

If he doesn’t it game over. He either get some slutty gf or cheats some small kid to be his gf.

My mom totally disapproves of ITE students. Its not about pre-qualifying or stero-typing. She is a teacher herself, she experiences how childish they behaved. Its more of the students bringing shame to themselves and their school. Hanging a label on them.

I bet you’ve been on the bus and have seen students having “FUN” in their school uniform. I bet you’ve thought, I’d never enroll my kid in this school in future!

Yahs it 6 plus in the morning on a Saturday and I’m awake. I’m not crazy but some eerie “thing” woke me up and I decided to sms Mr Z. He called and in his half-sober emo state, he told me lots of stuff.

Stuff like how he’s gonna hurt me.Stuff like should be with a guy of the same standard, someone with good grades.Stuff like he’s younger and how our thinking differs.Stuff like what my mom would think.

And of course some A stuff.It kinda wrong but, its true!

Is like why married guys have external affairs, not to mention other circumstances and problems. But sometimes its cos their wives don’t satisfy their needs.

Have you wondered why guys ask for sex?

Cos they need it.LOL.

Try finding a guy who has never had those thoughts before. ITS IMPOSSIBLE.

I really hoped he’d use his “brains” to think about this in his studies. haha

Stuff about how bad he was and how we don’t match. I was kinda shocked as I never thought a 17 year old guy would think so much. Luke wont. So I kinda put the same stereo type that he wont either.

But I really hope he’ll find a motivation to help him to change.

It isn’t easy. I only found mine recently. I started to wonder if I studied for my psle and O’s would my grades be better. Maybe, maybe not.

4 months down after ray, I’ve been so pessimistic that I never wanted a bf again. Its more of I never thought I’d have one. The experience had made me more independent not as reliant on bfs anymore.

I too learnt not to put in too much feeling and think of how others feel more often.

But he appeared in my life and caught my attention. Maybe I should have knew him 5 years ago in swiss but I never took notice. In that delinquent stage of life, only good looking guys gain attention. Thinking back of that stage.. I believe I’ve grown a lot. Much mature than 1 year ago and i believe he would too.

I believe he’s one whom put his heart into doing things. He’ll succeed. But maybe not at the moment yet.